Waiting is A Game!

I hate waiting!! I guess everybody who knows me will know this to be damned true. I know that my hubby always keep me waiting but I REALLY HATE WAITING!

Waiting for my baby to arrive is a torture. I swear the baby's clothes being unfold and folded again like 5 times a day. They are so darn cute! So small and colorful and cute! I keep on imagining how he would look like. Part me and part Hadi off course. Hadi's eyes and nose, my mouth and my dimple. He had to be chubby. He's already 2.8kg now. 39 weeks in my womb. Mummy fed you well, did I?

I find it very hard to take preggie picture. Not sure why. But I do have a pict taken during raya that I thought looks okay. Well, you can still count all the pimples on my face though.


See what happens when you brag a lot about your pimpleless face before? It will come at hit you at your face. Like this. I've turned darker and I think the amount of pimples that I had within this 9 months exceed the amount of pimples that I had for all my life.

I had myself to blame for this one. I was so lazy to wash my face anymore. The Dermalogica product (GOD I LOVE THEM) are the best but they won't work if you don't use them. Hence all the pimples I guess. Its okay. Will start again once given birth. I know I still got a few free facial left there.

Will start to take care of myself more after this. Would want my baby to be proud of his mummy. Would want to prove my hubby that I too can slim down. Even by few kg's only.

Come to think of this year, such blessing we had. A new house and a new member of the family. Will tell you more about the new house that we stayed for already 6 months now. Thank GOD, ALHAMDULILLAH!

Snippets

Night Out With My Chubby Hubby

I know that I'm forever nagging him to take me out, even when I'm just counting days to meet my lovely baby. Its just that I love to spend time with him so much nowadays that even a simple night out would be more than sufficient for me.

So what we did is to go out. To Alamanda. Nothing special though. We're just out to get my medicine, went to the banks and so on. Just errands. Then we bought KFC, just a snack plate, to take away.

Off we go to the banks then. after that, we just stop by Masjid Putra, sat there and have a lovely night picnic by the lake. It was so breathtakingly beautiful. He was so sweet. Everything is perfect!

That's just the night that I would remember forever.. Just the three of us, Hubby, me and baby in the tummy... A picture perfect of a happy family...

Raya

Had a open house done during raya. Nothing big, just a simple gathering I might say. Thanks to my mother and mother in laws, it was smooth. If its up to me, I won't be able to do anything at all. I'm already 8 mths plus preggie at that time.

Raya was different I must say. With all the anticipation waiting for the baby. we celebrated Raya this year with hubby's family. As usual, first day Raya is in Subang and the next is in Muar. Being in the car that long is really exhausting for me. Back ache is what I can't endure actually. Then comes the muscle cramps since I've been walking all day long to relatives house.. Not to mention the non stop eating ahahhaha...

By 3 weeks of Raya, I gained extra 3 kilos, while I manage to maintain no weight gain during fasting month. well I guess it just fair. Anyway whatever food I ate will go to the baby right? So in a way I'm feeding my baby right? (Excuses)

Preggie

As for now I'm counting days to see my baby. Already on holiday, long holiday actually since I stretched it from Raya. I think we had almost everything covered in terms of baby stuff. We bought almost everything, not leaving anything at all for anyone to buy ahahhahaa.. Well, we're just excited parents that's all.

I already can feel the contraction. Can see my feet swollen up. Can't see if I'm standing though. My tummy is extremely big that people keep on asking whether its a twin. We do hope so even its a fat chance to get a twin..

Hubby is extremely sweet to me nowadays. Well sweeter than he always do I can say. He tried his best to come home early everyday. And yes, I'm staying at my parents house for now. Will go to my in laws house tomorrow since they're just 10 mins away from SJMC.

Did I mention that we're gonna go to SJMC for delivery? No because we had so much money to spend, its just that my hubby's company covers maternity in SJMC. So I could safely says that I'm going to stay at SJMC for free, or maybe for a few hundreds if we exceed the ceiling.

Random Comments

Only my hubby and I knows what trouble I love getting myself into last time. I can still remember a few 'close friends' that turns into 'not friends anymore'. Those people who stabbed me in the back, those people who managed to make my life harder. Those people that I know I won't forget. These are the people that made me bitter, made me hard to be close to anyone, made me hated the term friendship.

Recently I stumble into some of them. Their life story, isn't as beautiful as mine. I'd say that the wheel has turned. Sorry for being unsympathetic. But I can say that you brought this all to yourself. All the bad deeds that you made towards me, has finally ate you back. My bad deeds that I've done to other people has been paid by facing my life experience knowing you. So the wheels has turned.

Do not blame me

I know I said that I will post the tournament photo's to this blog, but so sorry because our Internet connection at home has been cut. Its only because we're moving house, and it takes forever to transfer the phone line to our new house.
Will get the picture uploaded once everything settled.

By the way, we have moved!! My house look like a store with all the box and after a week, not even a box fully unpacked!!! Arghhh.. dunno where to start and dunno where to keep all of those stuff. I could not believe that from our small flat we had so many things.

Anyway, I know my post are all so boring nowadays. I'll try to get my Internet connection fixed so I can do proper post at home. Now posting blogs from office are just so nuisance. They keep interrupting my flow of thought and in the end, recent few post is what you get.

So.. just bear with me. I promise I will definitely post the pics soon.

PS :- There's a paintball buffet on 15th March BY MudTrekker, pallet unlimited!! Msg me if you wanna join.

What??

Oh Gosh!!

I have done a big mistake!! Look at my page.. what can you see as a mistake here? Something that I honestly did not attend to do so, yet it carries so much meaning (which is not true!!!)



OH MY GOD. I intend to say Paintballer's wife, not a painballer's wife!!!! Erghh.. What one alphabet can change the whole meaning.....

I have totally change it.. this is just as a reminder.. wrong words will mean something else...

What done can't be recovered

I have a huge, huge row with my hubby last night. Not that I'm going through every details here, but he reminds me that I need to be thankful. Thankful for him being at home on 10 o'clock every night when most of his friends, married or single, slave away in a karaoke with sleezy GRO and tons of alcohols.

That made me think. I am grateful that he's home every single night. And god knows how much I trust him. He is different from any KL boys that I ever knew. That is the reason why I choose him from other boys. But what different I am from other girls? I rarely cooks, I rarely clean the house. The only thing I do regularly is ironing his shirt. He did say that he need something to be gateful of, having me as a wife. Man I need to buck up!!

But the words, as true as it is, it kills me. It kills me to realize that I am the one who took him for granted. I never have to worry about having no money, his salary is enough to support both of us. Yet I'm working, and not a single cent contribution to our house. Every single thing is paid for. Even my telephone bill was paid for. Some of my credit cards bill is paid for. My money is simply for me. How selfish I am,(that is what my husband called me, which now I came to agree to it) to let go of my own responsibility. I know he didn't ask for money, he got more that what I earned. All he ever want is me being his wife.

Now, have I promised him to change? Numerous times. Have I swear to do as he says? I lost count. I am a selfish person.

ALRIGHT. What I'm going to do is to set up a small target. A very small target to achieve. I will try to make a breakfast everyday. Small breakfast such as a fried meehoon, or a sandwich (which he loves so much). Give me a week to fullfill this. From today onwards, everyday breakfast for me dear hubby!!!

You can do it!!!

What lost what gained

I got the result of the interview. I DID NOT GET IT. It doesn't matter though. In fact, its a relief. I have a very huge doubt of my capability of handling the job. You know, I even had a dream that I failed doing the job that caused me fired. Urghhh.. ugly dream I tell you.

It's okay. Although I didn't get the job, I still get something though. I got an order of 10 jerseys (which I'm currently selling). Well, that's good enough I guess. Still waiting for 60 jerseys order to confirmed and another 10 to come through.

What am I thinking actually when I was told that I did not get the job? I was just thinking, should I look dissapointed because I'm not at all, or should I look joyous, that would keep him wondering why ahhahahaha... nevertheless, I remained calm and acted like a very sane person.
Well, Shan is going to be very dissapointed since I'm going to be in his team for a long time. On a bright side, I can still bully my manager in my current team!!

Anyway, moving house proved to difficult. I hope that this will be our last move for long long time. I love my new house. Thanks to my dear hubby who goes with all of my wishes.

Anyway, Valentines day. I do not celebrate it at all. I have celebrated it before, that was back when I was still in school and college, when I was too naive to understand the real Valentines stood for. Anyway, I did not care for Valentines day for a very very long time already, until this year. This is my 2nd Valentines as a wife. My1st, nothing that I can remember because there's nothing done. This year however, I received a very sweet sms from my dear hubby. "walaupun kita celebrate Valentine, tapi saya nak awak tau saya syg awak. You are the star of my heart."

You see, this is actually a big effort coming from my hubby. He is the type that always and always think that we women do not need to hear sweet words when we are in pain or difficulties. He always say that what we need is the truth. SO when he gave a sweet word, which happens to be the truth, I'm really touched. But I would appreciate it he could give me more sweet words you see. I could never get tired of sweet words. Like famous amos cookies. How do you get tired of it?

Anyway, I'm at the office right now. Thinking of my hubby who doesn't know to stop working. He better not be working tomorrow or I'll just explode!! Arrrghhhh!!

OK then. Chiow for now.

Now that I think of it...

Do you realize that its so rare to see anyone marry their childhood sweetheart? I was just thinking about my friends and who were we dating with back then... None of us married our childhood sweetheart. I once fall head over heels for a guy, and I thought that he was my true love. Boy what I went through just to keep our relationship alive.

And I'm thinking about this relationship I'm currently under. No doubt this is the longest relationship I have ever been in. And I'm praying, hoping that this is forever. Heck, I'm married to this guy. Please la forever....

Anyway what made me think was a question from a friend of mine.. What makes me think that my hubby is the one? Obviously so many people think that they have made a right choice my getting married. And obviously there are so many people who made the mistake of thinking so.

Well, here's my answer. What do you look for in a husband? I believe that determined how long your marriage gonna last. If you're looking for someone who you can have fun with, I doubt its gonna last very long.

I am gonna get a little bit religious here. We have guidance on how to choose your other half, I would strongly suggest for you to actually to go through the list and check what's there, what's not there. The first two is very important. The religion and the family trees. You don't want to get married and end up marrying your half brother or sister right?

As for religion, doesn't mean that as long as both of you are Muslim that's enough. You might need someone who will be able to guide you. Completing each other that's what is important.

I have tons more to say on this subject but seems like time is not allowing me to continue. I would continue my say later, maybe in another topic then. I know that this is such a boring post. But I feel compelled to do so in this matter.

I'll try to post more interesting post soon. Bye for now.

And A Happy New Day!!!!!

Hear, Hear!!!!!

With this I announce, I am exremely happy and excited and giddy!!! I am so extremely content, extremely feeling good, extremely everything!! Such a good start of the year you see.. All the puzzle fall in pieces and what a good piece it is!!

Why am I so happy? Because I got shortlisted for second interview!!!!! Yeay!!!!!!

The reason why I was so happy is because I never thought that I will get shortlisted for second interview. I wasn't expecting to be called for the first interview in the first place. So when I was being interviewed, I was nervous like hell. I pant, I cough, my voice trembles, my head blank, I talk too fast, I gave stupid answer to a very brilliant question. I have done all sort of the not to do's in the interview.

I remember going out from the meeting room, feeling like shit and hopeless and defeated. I had never done THAT bad in interviews before. Anyway, I'm glad that I got it wrong for this.. ehehhehe..

Anyway, newsflash!! We're moving to our own house soon!!! Another happy story to tell you about but I have no idea how to put it in words. The feeling of having our own house for the first time so wonderful.

Will TRY to update more later...

What A Day...

1999 was the year.It's been so long since I knew you. At first, you're just another guy from which ever part of the world, that won't look into my eyes at all. Well, I could understand why. I'm just a newbie at that time, and you are one of the notorious warrior. And then you became a thief, while I from someone who believes in magic changes my path to healing.

Did you ever gave me any chance? Not at all. Not even when you know my reputation is growing. Not even when you know that I am the only female in that dark world, and everybody is paying attention to me.

2001 was the year. Then we crossed path. We both decided to returned to reality. And we met. We both at the arms of other people. You look good in her arms, and you definitely glowing with happiness. How I envy that. And my arms also link with another guy. He doesn't know anything about our dark world. Its getting harder and harder....

And I fall into the darkest pit. The most dirty, smelly darkest pit I ever fall off. Then I saw you there. You also fell? But you climbed up very quickly, and you recovered. But not me. I'm falling deeper and deeper and getting nowhere in this reality world. I tried escaping through the dark world, but it all seems meaningless...

Your arms are free. Then you helped me. You, the one who is most sought after, is lending your arms to me. You helped me out from that dark pit. You set my path straight, and clear the obstacle for me. you were at the front, fighting my war for me. How I valued you, looking at you as my knight with shining armor..

2003 was the year. I am inseparable from you. All I can see is you. All I ever think of is you. I cornered you, yanked away your freedom, and cling ed myself to you. I know you couldn't breath, I know you feel trapped, but how could you feel trapped with me? You, who helped me though my day, who I trust my life with. Then you threw me away. I couldn't understand why. How could you push me into misery when you saved me in my own war?

I begged and I begged. And you keep on asking me to look at the point. What point? The point where I'm about to destroy myself? After eternity, then only I get it. I could live without you. I could make it on my own. But you made me complete. I don't have to cling ed myself at you, I can do my own thing. I survived all these while, what makes me weak?

I understood then. You, as a well known fighter, wants me to fight. Wants me to stand on my own 2 feet. Wants me not to rely on people around so much, as they could hurt you. Wants me to know how to clear my own path, and walk straight without his direction.

2006 was the year. We joined as one. You, again became inseparable from me. But, so do you from me. All we can see is each other. And you make me the happiest woman alive. You, who loves me for who I am. You, who teaches me valuable lesson of life. You, who brighten my day just by a touch of your skin.

2007 is the year.I can see your face lit by morning sun. I can see you closing your eyes every night. I can see you when you sad, my heart would shatter into pieces. When you laugh, I will smile for days, thinking about your life. I still love you , as much as I loved you before, probably more. I pray for your life, so I can live my day happily as I am now.

Though we're getting older, but I really hope that we have a long journey ahead of us. I would want to go to that journey with you by my side. Lets grow old together. Lets live together.

I love you more as you age more. I love you hubby, and always will. Happy birthday.

True to your words!!

I seriously have no idea what to put for my title so here it goes. Got nothing to do with what I'm about to say now.

Here goes. I have no patience for life. I really have no patience for other people as well. How I survived in customer service line for this long also I don't know. I seriously very inpatience person. I can just go nuts over simple smal thing as in rice... over some uncook rice I cried my heart out of ,anger and despair. Believe it? You better!!

I see my mum as my idol. I really do. But I can't see myself to be as patient as she is. I have never seen her goes berserk to my dear dad as I did to my husband. I have never seen her voice out her objection angrily as I always did to my husband. the only time I saw her went berserk is when the trial time on our family. By that I mean when I was a rebel teenager back then. I was impossible to handle.. Well I'm almost impossible to handle even now according to my husband... (sorry dear for that, I am stubborn yes I know).

My mum has gone though a lot with me. I mean, I made a lot of things that broke her heart and she still loves me anyway. I have done the unthinkable to them, and made my mum cried almost every night. I still felt sorry for that. And for that, I've been trying my best to make her the happiest mum in the world. And I want my dad to know that I've changed, if not a lot. I want them to be proud of what I am now. Although I' a college dropout, I'm still doing fine. And I'm working with the largest bank on earth. I hope they're proud!!

But what I need THE MOST now is patience. I know that I should snapped on my hubby, but I did, and I did almost everyday. I could tell you that most of our argument is because neither of us is being patient with each other. Neither one of is willing to back off when it comes to argument. I guess when we're married, we expect the best from our soulmate, but since no one is perfect, we're not getting what we were hoping for.

Well,I know that I need that patience more than anything else now. I'm just so tired of getting caught in a middle of nasty argument by not being patient. I love my hubby dearly, but I just can't get my head straight when I'm arguing something.

Hmmm... there's an interesting argument going on in the office right now. So I'm signing off rite now, will continue later okay..

Tell me the first step to get a baby..

I am so freaking jealous with most of my friends. OK I admit that I am insanely jealous with those who have babies doesn't matter my friends or not!!! I am so into babies.. that I dream of having one almost every month..OK OK every week!!!!

What am I supposed to say? I love baby, I really want at least one.. but we haven't have any.. not because we don't want to.. but that thing just won't stick around.. I hate to answer those bloody question of when? Am I planning? Dammit I just hate that stupid question!!

To a less depressing topic, I FINALLY GOT MY ACCREDITATION SCHEME!! Woo Hoooo!!!! Extra money for extra lavish lifestyle ahahahhahahaha.... what lavish also I dunno..

Birthday gone, doesn't even feel like celebrating it.. gloomy birthday except when hubby throws a surpise small birthday party that attended by 99% of HIS friends... ahhahaha.. ehh wait.. is it my birtday party or his.. ohh.. mine.. the cake says my name... ahahhahaha... Thanks Sab for being there..

What else.. ohh.. I really wanted to upload some pics from last raya, but they're uploading it real slow so I got fed up so I decided will upload it later. (which might mean never in my terms ehehhe). Anyway, I enjoy this year of raya sooo much because I get to go back to my hometown. My hubby really really can't cope with village celebration that is so quiet yet so 'meriah'. That's ok, he will learn in years to come I hope..

What I love most is the busy preparation. We're in the kitchen all day long, which I don't get to feel last year because my in law's family celebrate it differently... I don't get to eat my favorite food last year, so this year... hmmm.. need I say more? ehehehhee..

Well, I'm sure that I'll miss it next year... ohhh great tasty delicious food... I'll see you two years from now!!

Anyway, I running out of word now. And I am getting extremely bitter because my extremely busy husband is so damn busy that I unable to see or even speak to him for 48 hrs now. So I'm just going to sleep now, alone. So people stop asking me why I'm not pregnant yet.

Good News!! Great News!!!!

Astro now has KBSW channel.. I have no freaking idea what it stands for but it is a Korean Channel!!!!!! Now I can watch Korean dramas all I want!!! I'm soooooo happy!!!
I dunno when did they add this new channel but to Astro, THANK YOU!!

Trying my best to update tis blog after months of keeping quiet. Seems like I am running out of words to say. Celebrating Raya in a very familiar yet different way. I'm so happy....

And yes.. Selamat Hari Raya dan Maaf Zahir Batin.

I'll try to update more after this...

What if...

What if your heart is broken so bad that you thought that your heart will never be the same again? Would you blame the person or the incident that did that to you? Or yourself for allowing it to happened to you? Will you be sad or angry? Will you mend your heart by crying and praying or broke people heart to make you feel better?

You see.. these are choices that we have in our life. Either to make yourself a better person or worse when facing a disaster of your life. Some people choose to guard themselves so they will never be hurt again, some people choose not to change anything because the experience worth all the hurting. Who are we to tell which one is right or wrong?

Maybe, just maybe... GOD destined us for better future. That's why he make this disaster happened. Maybe if this isn't happening, we could be worse. I'm sure there's a silver lining in every cloud. This is my choice of handling my sadness. If I'm ever frustrated over anything, I'll promise myself to remember this. I will no resort to blaming others, or even the situation. I'll not blame myself either. I hope I'll be a better person.

I'm ultimately sure that if God wants me to be a mother, I'll be. Maybe not now, but I will. God will let us be. I'll just need to make sure that I'm a better person so that I'll be a better mother than I will now. I'll take this as a test for me. Thank you God for at least giving me the opportunity of hoping.

PS :- This doesn't mean that I miscarried or anything. Simply because I have to wait for another month for trying.

Correct me if I'm wrong but...

Correct me if I'm wrong but the losing of Nurin Jazlin is the parents fault. I'm being very bold here, but not without my deepest sympathy, but an eight years old child shouldn't be going to night market alone. That is definitely not a place for a child, no matter how safe you think the place is... To thought that the parents would learned something from a missing child case at SOGO a few months back..

Correct me if I'm wrong but a little girl alone is like a magnet to pedophiles. In places of people don't really pay attention of one another except selling and buying and chit chatting, its a heaven to them. No one would notice anything, who would have cared of a little girl crying at the arm of a man, the would have thought that the girl was denied a candy or something.

Correct me if I'm wrong but a child shouldn't go anywhere alone. It us who suppose to bring them. We are the caretakers, so we care for them, and take them to places they want to go. Although the place is very near, and the people are just your neighbors, but you have to know this. Murderers or a criminals or a pedophiles ARE someone's neighbor. You could never know anything like this would happened.

Correct me if I'm wrong but a sick child shouldn't be going anywhere alone. What if she falls into drain and so helpless to ask for help? Can you imagine a sick child in the drain, unconscious, and the clock is ticking before she lost her life... what if anything happens and she needs her medication straight away? Who would have the medicine if not for people who cares for her...

Please learn from mistakes.. I'm so devastated to see this happening in Malaysia again and again.. Use some brain please... There's nothing wrong of being a little bit paranoid, its your child safety for god's sake, you don't gamble with that!! I'm so sorry if I sound crude or in anyway this post might hurt anyone's feeling, but someone has to say something over this.

Please don't rely on government to teach you every single thing. Do you really have to told to hold your child's hand while crossing? WHO in their right mind would let a child cross the road by themselves? These little are important. Might seems petty and troublesome, but these are the things that can make you sleep well at night. Same as not letting your child out of supervision. Its called common sense!! But then again.. maybe common sense is not common at all....

I imagine the worst could happen when we ignore little thing like this. I pray that Nurin will be home safely soon. No child should pay for parents mistake. She shouldn't suffer like this so that parents in Malaysia would learn how to take care of their child. I hope when I have a child, I would pay attention to these little details. I hope that everyone would.

Until next disaster, I'm reporting sadly from my bedroom....

Behold my words!!!

Today I'm gonna be a bit serious. I know that I got 2 post pending, but I don't feel like blogging about it at all. Lets talk about the most popular topic today.. Maybe not anymore since weeks has passed I know...

Bus crashes, 20 killed

Ehhh.. again? I very very sure I've heard about this like few years before.. Happened again??!! Never learn from mistakes. I don't know until how many hundreds died, then they would put more efforts on avoiding this catastrophes. Lets do what Malaysians do best.. who to blame in this case?

• The bus company

(Picture me saying this shouting) What the hell the bus company is thinking? Where is their responsibility? Didn't they run a check against their employee? Don't tell me that they didn't know about their own bus driver!! That is the lamest excuse ever! Ignorance is bliss I can see that now. Because of ignorance, 20 died, and they get to keep their hands off this matter.. Bliss huh??
I understand that we cannot avoid human error, no one is perfect blah blah blah... but human error can be minimized god dammit!!
I say we just sue the damn company for putting their passenger at risk! Sue them so that they won't be able to operate anymore! Sue them so they have to take bus as their public transport, and scared the shit out of them every time on the damn bus!! Sue them because they don't have moral or civic or whatever conscience they should have. Sue them because they're just irresponsible bastard who can only see money!!!! (panting)

• Our government

Why ohh why this fella still be able to drive around? Why you can put a normal people to jail for parking ticket, but not him? How the hell he can renew his license? Why that you giving excuse after excuse? I don't understand!!!! You see, now when you want to apply this new act or that new law, it wont work either. You know why? Because you have to practise what you said!! You can't just said that ppl cannot do this and that, but when they do, you just close one eye!!!

What ever it is.. I know its too late to point fingers. Let gone be bygone. So after weeks that fatal incident happens, I bet now everybody can relax, smile as if nothing happens, and still sleeping while driving (I'm talking about all the bus drivers).Until the next crash, I'm reporting live from my bedroom :)

What la..

I just came back from my parents house, right after watching Cinta Mat Rempit. Its like a family tradition, to watch Cerekarama every Saturday night at 10pm, TV3. But the movie sucks. Although I love the lead actor so much because of his previous drama, but this drama sucks. Its like lame version of A Walk to Remember.. What laa.. want to tiru pun at least make is good can or not? Spoiled the movie jer..

On other taught, I have so many things to update, especially the latest Royal London Circus. Got a few movie clip to show, but then again, still not sure how to upload. The truth is, I don't even find a way yet. Lazy la nowadays..

Other taught again, I will be on leave for almost a week. Heaven...

A day of frustration

They all got accreditation scheme. An allowance of $83 or $95. If for me, I'll get $95. But guess what, I didn't get, at all!! There, I said it. I don't get a cent!! Why everyone is making a big fuss over it? You guys get, good for you, those who didn't get, don't pull me along with your rebellious scheme. I just don't farking care!!!

I'm hurt ok? I really thought that I got. I even manage to get compliment. Then what the hell did I do wrong? Everyone is pouring their heart out to me.. not satisfied this fella got, this fella don't have, management biased, boyfriend manager get extra attention...

Guess what??!! Life is unfair ok? And we still have to go through it every single farking day!! Just suck up your damn bloody mood, and move on!!

Who am I suppose to pour my heart to? Every single farking people tell me how upet they are.. hello!!! I'm upset too ok? I ALSO DIDN'T GET IT!!!!!! Why the fark do you guys think that I'll comfort you??!!!

I weren't this upset this morning.. but since everyone is assuming that I'm absolutely ok with not getting almost RM100 which I'm suppose to get, all pouring their heart out to me.. I'm getting depressed....

Emo rant!!

I am absolutely, definitely damn bloody angry today.. I was so hoping that my day is gonna be perfect.. Woke up right on time.. every single thing so perfect this morning. Until I heard a song.. you're having bad day by dunno who...
Then my bad day started.. 1st, I was queuing for the Putrajaya toll, thinking that I'm gonna be at least 15 minutes early that usual, at the same time wondering why the hell got so many car at 10 o'clock in the morning??!!
Then I got my answer.. Its a bloody traffic jammed!!!!!!!!! I have been having a blissful day for all this while, thinking all this long that as long as I'm working in Cyberjaya, there's no bloody way I'm gonna face traffic jammed. Well, I was wrong today. The cars are not moving at all for almost 10 minutes. Must be pretty bad accident then.. So okay.. I just call office and let them know that I might be late.. heh... so much for reaching office early today..
Then almost half an hour passed, and I'm not even close to Cyberjaya exit. I'm getting pissed at that time. Well hello.. even no matter how bad the accident is, do you really have to watch aa? Just drive your damn car faster if you're not helping!!! Nak ambik nombor ke????
As I was busy looking around, the car in front of me moves a few inches. Since its still jammed ahead, I don't even bother to move, alah a few inches only.. any car also cannot squeeze in lah. Some jammed, ppl also don't bother changing lane what. Then the bloody stupid car behind me have the nerve to honk me!! Stupid ass, you think what? Drive Gen 2 so big already meh???!! There's a fucked up jammed in front and you still honked me? Hello???!! Gotta pee so bad issit? Going to London issit? If I move also you cant get to London quickly what!! Jammed la idiot!!! You honked me for what???!!!!! Stupid hairy ass!!!
Then I can see what is the cause of traffic jammed. ITS A BLOODY ROAD BLOCK!!!! Who the hell blocked the road until jammed so bad one? And they don't even bother looking at the cars passed by!! Just close 3 out of 4 lanes, let all the cars squeeze into one lane, then just let the car passed by like that... Hello??!!! Don't want to look then don't block the fucking road can or not!!!!! Another case of stupidity... heih.. bodoh nak mampus!!!

Then finally I reached office after officially half an hour late. Then I answer my first call..

ME : Welcome to................ ...... How can I help you today?
CUST : Hello??!!! Why charge me interest? I pay full bal ok!!
ME : LAright ma'am, let me check for you, card number please?
CUST : xxxx xxxx xxxx

after verification..

ME : Ma'am you didn't pay full balance, you only pay more that your minimum payment.
CUST: No. I pay more that my full balance, I shouldn't be overlimit!!!
ME : Ma'am, the amount that you pay is slightly more that your minimum payment. Your full balance is AUD2500.00. That's why you've been charged interest. If you don't want to be charged again, you've got to pay full balance every month..
CUST: Well I don't have 2 grand, that's why I use your credit cards!!!!
ME : .............................................

Aiyohh.. this type of customer also got aa.. you use you have to pay la idiot!! Some more act like the money she spent is her money.. hello!!! Credit card la woi!! Not debit card!!

I honestly don't think that Malaysian are not educated in using credit cards as our government kecoh all this while.. I think this ang moh is in serious need of help.. I met a lot of Aussie's who don't even know what payment due date is!! Malaysians.. be proud.. we definitely more clever that some other ang moh out there.. believe it or not?

Anyway.. this is just some emotional rant because I'm having such a bad morning.. the rest of the day is okay la actually...

My Self

What can one say about oneself?

This is where I hope I can record the events of my life, happy or not, glorious or not, funny or not. Don't mean to publish the private life of myself, just hoping that one day I could open this blog and say that I've been there, done that!!

I'm female, 26 and married. Currently working with a bank, not such a high-paid job, more like a kuli. I am currently in KL, living with my husband, just the two of us.

I am not a great writer though, but I do have some opinion on my own.Trying my best to be a better person, but keep on doing the same mistake :)

I am very talkative if you get to know me..