Taking over

im taking over from my wife... hehehe.. now im the owner.

Waiting is A Game!

I hate waiting!! I guess everybody who knows me will know this to be damned true. I know that my hubby always keep me waiting but I REALLY HATE WAITING!

Waiting for my baby to arrive is a torture. I swear the baby's clothes being unfold and folded again like 5 times a day. They are so darn cute! So small and colorful and cute! I keep on imagining how he would look like. Part me and part Hadi off course. Hadi's eyes and nose, my mouth and my dimple. He had to be chubby. He's already 2.8kg now. 39 weeks in my womb. Mummy fed you well, did I?

I find it very hard to take preggie picture. Not sure why. But I do have a pict taken during raya that I thought looks okay. Well, you can still count all the pimples on my face though.


See what happens when you brag a lot about your pimpleless face before? It will come at hit you at your face. Like this. I've turned darker and I think the amount of pimples that I had within this 9 months exceed the amount of pimples that I had for all my life.

I had myself to blame for this one. I was so lazy to wash my face anymore. The Dermalogica product (GOD I LOVE THEM) are the best but they won't work if you don't use them. Hence all the pimples I guess. Its okay. Will start again once given birth. I know I still got a few free facial left there.

Will start to take care of myself more after this. Would want my baby to be proud of his mummy. Would want to prove my hubby that I too can slim down. Even by few kg's only.

Come to think of this year, such blessing we had. A new house and a new member of the family. Will tell you more about the new house that we stayed for already 6 months now. Thank GOD, ALHAMDULILLAH!

Snippets

Night Out With My Chubby Hubby

I know that I'm forever nagging him to take me out, even when I'm just counting days to meet my lovely baby. Its just that I love to spend time with him so much nowadays that even a simple night out would be more than sufficient for me.

So what we did is to go out. To Alamanda. Nothing special though. We're just out to get my medicine, went to the banks and so on. Just errands. Then we bought KFC, just a snack plate, to take away.

Off we go to the banks then. after that, we just stop by Masjid Putra, sat there and have a lovely night picnic by the lake. It was so breathtakingly beautiful. He was so sweet. Everything is perfect!

That's just the night that I would remember forever.. Just the three of us, Hubby, me and baby in the tummy... A picture perfect of a happy family...

Raya

Had a open house done during raya. Nothing big, just a simple gathering I might say. Thanks to my mother and mother in laws, it was smooth. If its up to me, I won't be able to do anything at all. I'm already 8 mths plus preggie at that time.

Raya was different I must say. With all the anticipation waiting for the baby. we celebrated Raya this year with hubby's family. As usual, first day Raya is in Subang and the next is in Muar. Being in the car that long is really exhausting for me. Back ache is what I can't endure actually. Then comes the muscle cramps since I've been walking all day long to relatives house.. Not to mention the non stop eating ahahhaha...

By 3 weeks of Raya, I gained extra 3 kilos, while I manage to maintain no weight gain during fasting month. well I guess it just fair. Anyway whatever food I ate will go to the baby right? So in a way I'm feeding my baby right? (Excuses)

Preggie

As for now I'm counting days to see my baby. Already on holiday, long holiday actually since I stretched it from Raya. I think we had almost everything covered in terms of baby stuff. We bought almost everything, not leaving anything at all for anyone to buy ahahhahaa.. Well, we're just excited parents that's all.

I already can feel the contraction. Can see my feet swollen up. Can't see if I'm standing though. My tummy is extremely big that people keep on asking whether its a twin. We do hope so even its a fat chance to get a twin..

Hubby is extremely sweet to me nowadays. Well sweeter than he always do I can say. He tried his best to come home early everyday. And yes, I'm staying at my parents house for now. Will go to my in laws house tomorrow since they're just 10 mins away from SJMC.

Did I mention that we're gonna go to SJMC for delivery? No because we had so much money to spend, its just that my hubby's company covers maternity in SJMC. So I could safely says that I'm going to stay at SJMC for free, or maybe for a few hundreds if we exceed the ceiling.

Random Comments

Only my hubby and I knows what trouble I love getting myself into last time. I can still remember a few 'close friends' that turns into 'not friends anymore'. Those people who stabbed me in the back, those people who managed to make my life harder. Those people that I know I won't forget. These are the people that made me bitter, made me hard to be close to anyone, made me hated the term friendship.

Recently I stumble into some of them. Their life story, isn't as beautiful as mine. I'd say that the wheel has turned. Sorry for being unsympathetic. But I can say that you brought this all to yourself. All the bad deeds that you made towards me, has finally ate you back. My bad deeds that I've done to other people has been paid by facing my life experience knowing you. So the wheels has turned.

What a sad day for Malaysia

We lost!

We lost Thomas Cup, after how many years of us not winning, we're adding another year of misery. It is such a sad day. So many effort wasted.

Anyway, is semifinal good enough for Malaysia?

Sign off with a heavy heart.

A test

Being pregnant has its up and down. Each and every single thing that anyone around me do or didn't do, disturbs me so much. One simple example, I feel hurt when my friend didn't say hi to me. It hurts me that I feel like crying. Not her fault though, because she had something going on at that time.

I also cried when I listened to certain song. It reminds me so much of how I feel about my baby and it touches my heart so much. It also hurts when my husband fell asleep downstairs while watching football. I cried all night long. Not any one's fault though. Just that my hearts is easily touched these day.

I cried again today. When the doctor show the scan to me, I was in tears. I could see my baby, so little, moving inside me. Then while driving, I cried again, remembering how the baby looks like. Its so tiring to cry all the time, because I am not someone who cries a lot. Heck, even I used to laugh at people who cried and make fun of them. What's becoming of me?

Then now at the office, I'm almost in tears again. To think about the two of us, my baby and I, what we will go through together. I will try to be the strongest person on earth, for my baby. What I have to go through just to have this baby, and what I have gone though during this 11 weeks.

The office has been a great big deal of a test as well. The calls that comes through, the idiocy of the questions asked, the volume of the calls, the complexity of it, and also with the people that I deal with. Honestly, I do not know how long I can endure this. But I will for the sake of my baby. We need the money. I'm not saying that my hub is not helping but we need all what we can have.

All this, contributed to my high blood pressure. And I need to cool down. I need help to cool down. Please help me....

Mood Swing

Terrible mood swing. Hormones raging up. I'm tired and I'm bored. I am going out of my mind here. I hate my job. I'm pissed and angry all the time today. I'm lonely and sensitive. I am all that and more!
I'm dizzy and feeling nauseated by the smell of this office.

Excuse me. I need to go and puke.

New Role

I'm thrilled as my new role takes place. Being a mother to be, (even by typing it sends shivers to my vein) I'm practically hyperventilating of happiness. And vomiting also, of course. I'm so tired and moody and God knows what else. But that doesn't affect anything about my happiness though.
Isn't this what I always want? Yes. This is exactly how I want it. Er mm.. not exactly. What I had in mind is more... hm mm... easy. I always imagine myself looking beautifully bloated on the stomach. And my baby will softly kicked me and I would be smiling and rubbing my baby. My dress is nothing short of fabulous. I get to wear beautiful pregnant dresses and look serenely, breathtakingly gorgeous with my swelling tummy.
Then my husband will come into the picture, looking as handsome as ever, and lovingly kissed me and our baby to be. What a beautiful picture it will be.
What I had in reality is extremely far from that. I didn't get to wear any pregnant dress yet because, lets just face it, nothing shows for 2 mths pregnant, except my own non-pregnant swelling tummy (fat I tell you, FAT!!!). I'm sure I'll look nothing like a beautiful happy pregnant lady, but look more like an indon maid, overdressed.
But even so, I do feel bloated, and I can't stop throwing out. Thank God I don't smell like vomit. Even with everything that I ate I manage to get it out, I still add few more kilos to my already overweight body. Which is actually a wonder on how did I manage to gain weight by the amount of vomit that came out of me everyday.
And my work just makes things worse. My job requires me to stare at the PC for eight hours and it adds up to my dizziness spell level to be increased. And then there's this ugly headphone attached to my head to enable customers to shout things straight to my brain. Makes things worse you see. I've been thinking to take like a whole 2 mths of leave, but then again, where will I get money from then?
Cravings is something that I still don't feel. Yes I do feel the urges to eat something different, like that day I really wanted to eat 'bubur kampung baru'. Then I have then sudden likeness to green guava. Until I vomit all out that's it, no more green guava for me. But it doesnt seems like a craving to me.
Talk about the food that I must take and musn't take. To put it in the easiest way possible, most of the food that I liked to eat, are strictly forbidden. But most of the food that I really hate to eat are top ten in my food intake list. Talk about urghhhhh...
And now I already felt dizzy by staring at this PC for too long.
By for now.