Oh Gosh!!
I have done a big mistake!! Look at my page.. what can you see as a mistake here? Something that I honestly did not attend to do so, yet it carries so much meaning (which is not true!!!)
OH MY GOD. I intend to say Paintballer's wife, not a painballer's wife!!!! Erghh.. What one alphabet can change the whole meaning.....
I have totally change it.. this is just as a reminder.. wrong words will mean something else...
I have a huge, huge row with my hubby last night. Not that I'm going through every details here, but he reminds me that I need to be thankful. Thankful for him being at home on 10 o'clock every night when most of his friends, married or single, slave away in a karaoke with sleezy GRO and tons of alcohols.
That made me think. I am grateful that he's home every single night. And god knows how much I trust him. He is different from any KL boys that I ever knew. That is the reason why I choose him from other boys. But what different I am from other girls? I rarely cooks, I rarely clean the house. The only thing I do regularly is ironing his shirt. He did say that he need something to be gateful of, having me as a wife. Man I need to buck up!!
But the words, as true as it is, it kills me. It kills me to realize that I am the one who took him for granted. I never have to worry about having no money, his salary is enough to support both of us. Yet I'm working, and not a single cent contribution to our house. Every single thing is paid for. Even my telephone bill was paid for. Some of my credit cards bill is paid for. My money is simply for me. How selfish I am,(that is what my husband called me, which now I came to agree to it) to let go of my own responsibility. I know he didn't ask for money, he got more that what I earned. All he ever want is me being his wife.
Now, have I promised him to change? Numerous times. Have I swear to do as he says? I lost count. I am a selfish person.
ALRIGHT. What I'm going to do is to set up a small target. A very small target to achieve. I will try to make a breakfast everyday. Small breakfast such as a fried meehoon, or a sandwich (which he loves so much). Give me a week to fullfill this. From today onwards, everyday breakfast for me dear hubby!!!
You can do it!!!
I got the result of the interview. I DID NOT GET IT. It doesn't matter though. In fact, its a relief. I have a very huge doubt of my capability of handling the job. You know, I even had a dream that I failed doing the job that caused me fired. Urghhh.. ugly dream I tell you.
It's okay. Although I didn't get the job, I still get something though. I got an order of 10 jerseys (which I'm currently selling). Well, that's good enough I guess. Still waiting for 60 jerseys order to confirmed and another 10 to come through.
What am I thinking actually when I was told that I did not get the job? I was just thinking, should I look dissapointed because I'm not at all, or should I look joyous, that would keep him wondering why ahhahahaha... nevertheless, I remained calm and acted like a very sane person.
Well, Shan is going to be very dissapointed since I'm going to be in his team for a long time. On a bright side, I can still bully my manager in my current team!!
Anyway, moving house proved to difficult. I hope that this will be our last move for long long time. I love my new house. Thanks to my dear hubby who goes with all of my wishes.
Anyway, Valentines day. I do not celebrate it at all. I have celebrated it before, that was back when I was still in school and college, when I was too naive to understand the real Valentines stood for. Anyway, I did not care for Valentines day for a very very long time already, until this year. This is my 2nd Valentines as a wife. My1st, nothing that I can remember because there's nothing done. This year however, I received a very sweet sms from my dear hubby. "walaupun kita celebrate Valentine, tapi saya nak awak tau saya syg awak. You are the star of my heart."
You see, this is actually a big effort coming from my hubby. He is the type that always and always think that we women do not need to hear sweet words when we are in pain or difficulties. He always say that what we need is the truth. SO when he gave a sweet word, which happens to be the truth, I'm really touched. But I would appreciate it he could give me more sweet words you see. I could never get tired of sweet words. Like famous amos cookies. How do you get tired of it?
Anyway, I'm at the office right now. Thinking of my hubby who doesn't know to stop working. He better not be working tomorrow or I'll just explode!! Arrrghhhh!!
OK then. Chiow for now.
Do you realize that its so rare to see anyone marry their childhood sweetheart? I was just thinking about my friends and who were we dating with back then... None of us married our childhood sweetheart. I once fall head over heels for a guy, and I thought that he was my true love. Boy what I went through just to keep our relationship alive.
And I'm thinking about this relationship I'm currently under. No doubt this is the longest relationship I have ever been in. And I'm praying, hoping that this is forever. Heck, I'm married to this guy. Please la forever....
Anyway what made me think was a question from a friend of mine.. What makes me think that my hubby is the one? Obviously so many people think that they have made a right choice my getting married. And obviously there are so many people who made the mistake of thinking so.
Well, here's my answer. What do you look for in a husband? I believe that determined how long your marriage gonna last. If you're looking for someone who you can have fun with, I doubt its gonna last very long.
I am gonna get a little bit religious here. We have guidance on how to choose your other half, I would strongly suggest for you to actually to go through the list and check what's there, what's not there. The first two is very important. The religion and the family trees. You don't want to get married and end up marrying your half brother or sister right?
As for religion, doesn't mean that as long as both of you are Muslim that's enough. You might need someone who will be able to guide you. Completing each other that's what is important.
I have tons more to say on this subject but seems like time is not allowing me to continue. I would continue my say later, maybe in another topic then. I know that this is such a boring post. But I feel compelled to do so in this matter.
I'll try to post more interesting post soon. Bye for now.
