A sip of war taste

Happiest.. happiest moment of my life.. see.. just look at the pic.. do I really need to tell what I was doing in that outfit? Well... to any girls.. I repeat.. GIRLS that would like to play paintball with us, do msg me here okay? I'm looking for girls who are tough enough be with us.. (actually to cover me ahahahahha)

Why do I have to be the biggest among all?

Anyway in the pic is me. Dilla, Mel and Yani.. Which one is which, you take a wild guess (don't anyone dare to guess which one is me by pointing out who's the biggest okay? I'm talking about the other three!!)

Still the biggest.. dammit next player need to be bigger than me!!!

I tell you, I was hiding behind the first bunker most of the time, dare not to move, but by the end of each game, I still have to catch my breath!! I swear that I turn blue from exhaustion. That's mainly because I hadn't had anything to eat since morning. And to those who knows me well should know better that I couldn't function without food. Like engine you see, they need petrol, the only thing difference is they don't store their excess fuel as fat (like we do).

Look at me I'm so fierce yet so happy ahahahhahaha

Anyway, thanks to my dearest hubby to introduce me to this game. I love you hubby!!!! I would love you more if you sponsor my next game... wink..wink..

What A Day...

1999 was the year.It's been so long since I knew you. At first, you're just another guy from which ever part of the world, that won't look into my eyes at all. Well, I could understand why. I'm just a newbie at that time, and you are one of the notorious warrior. And then you became a thief, while I from someone who believes in magic changes my path to healing.

Did you ever gave me any chance? Not at all. Not even when you know my reputation is growing. Not even when you know that I am the only female in that dark world, and everybody is paying attention to me.

2001 was the year. Then we crossed path. We both decided to returned to reality. And we met. We both at the arms of other people. You look good in her arms, and you definitely glowing with happiness. How I envy that. And my arms also link with another guy. He doesn't know anything about our dark world. Its getting harder and harder....

And I fall into the darkest pit. The most dirty, smelly darkest pit I ever fall off. Then I saw you there. You also fell? But you climbed up very quickly, and you recovered. But not me. I'm falling deeper and deeper and getting nowhere in this reality world. I tried escaping through the dark world, but it all seems meaningless...

Your arms are free. Then you helped me. You, the one who is most sought after, is lending your arms to me. You helped me out from that dark pit. You set my path straight, and clear the obstacle for me. you were at the front, fighting my war for me. How I valued you, looking at you as my knight with shining armor..

2003 was the year. I am inseparable from you. All I can see is you. All I ever think of is you. I cornered you, yanked away your freedom, and cling ed myself to you. I know you couldn't breath, I know you feel trapped, but how could you feel trapped with me? You, who helped me though my day, who I trust my life with. Then you threw me away. I couldn't understand why. How could you push me into misery when you saved me in my own war?

I begged and I begged. And you keep on asking me to look at the point. What point? The point where I'm about to destroy myself? After eternity, then only I get it. I could live without you. I could make it on my own. But you made me complete. I don't have to cling ed myself at you, I can do my own thing. I survived all these while, what makes me weak?

I understood then. You, as a well known fighter, wants me to fight. Wants me to stand on my own 2 feet. Wants me not to rely on people around so much, as they could hurt you. Wants me to know how to clear my own path, and walk straight without his direction.

2006 was the year. We joined as one. You, again became inseparable from me. But, so do you from me. All we can see is each other. And you make me the happiest woman alive. You, who loves me for who I am. You, who teaches me valuable lesson of life. You, who brighten my day just by a touch of your skin.

2007 is the year.I can see your face lit by morning sun. I can see you closing your eyes every night. I can see you when you sad, my heart would shatter into pieces. When you laugh, I will smile for days, thinking about your life. I still love you , as much as I loved you before, probably more. I pray for your life, so I can live my day happily as I am now.

Though we're getting older, but I really hope that we have a long journey ahead of us. I would want to go to that journey with you by my side. Lets grow old together. Lets live together.

I love you more as you age more. I love you hubby, and always will. Happy birthday.

True to your words!!

I seriously have no idea what to put for my title so here it goes. Got nothing to do with what I'm about to say now.

Here goes. I have no patience for life. I really have no patience for other people as well. How I survived in customer service line for this long also I don't know. I seriously very inpatience person. I can just go nuts over simple smal thing as in rice... over some uncook rice I cried my heart out of ,anger and despair. Believe it? You better!!

I see my mum as my idol. I really do. But I can't see myself to be as patient as she is. I have never seen her goes berserk to my dear dad as I did to my husband. I have never seen her voice out her objection angrily as I always did to my husband. the only time I saw her went berserk is when the trial time on our family. By that I mean when I was a rebel teenager back then. I was impossible to handle.. Well I'm almost impossible to handle even now according to my husband... (sorry dear for that, I am stubborn yes I know).

My mum has gone though a lot with me. I mean, I made a lot of things that broke her heart and she still loves me anyway. I have done the unthinkable to them, and made my mum cried almost every night. I still felt sorry for that. And for that, I've been trying my best to make her the happiest mum in the world. And I want my dad to know that I've changed, if not a lot. I want them to be proud of what I am now. Although I' a college dropout, I'm still doing fine. And I'm working with the largest bank on earth. I hope they're proud!!

But what I need THE MOST now is patience. I know that I should snapped on my hubby, but I did, and I did almost everyday. I could tell you that most of our argument is because neither of us is being patient with each other. Neither one of is willing to back off when it comes to argument. I guess when we're married, we expect the best from our soulmate, but since no one is perfect, we're not getting what we were hoping for.

Well,I know that I need that patience more than anything else now. I'm just so tired of getting caught in a middle of nasty argument by not being patient. I love my hubby dearly, but I just can't get my head straight when I'm arguing something.

Hmmm... there's an interesting argument going on in the office right now. So I'm signing off rite now, will continue later okay..

We're not in war people!!!!

What a busy day. What a tiring, busy day. What a tiring yet exciting, busy day. Today is the first day of my darling's paintball tournament. I've been there yes, but I'm in the office currently because..hmmmm...... welll..... you know why.......... I HAVE TO WORK!!!!

But I can see him being happy.. yes he is extremely happy. I was there until his second game, and there's 2 more games to go. First game is the easiest. Because the opposite team decided that they're too chicken to fight my mighty hubby and just didn't turn up for the game.. ehhehehe.. yes my hubby is a mighty hubby... ehehhehehe...

The second game is quite good, and off course, being mighty as he is, they won!!!! Although 2 of his team member got their marker jammed, but they won alright. And he was so ecstatic that he won!! Well, I would be too if I were him.. It is a good game ok... hiding behind bunkers and get to shoot people and hide some more... ahahahhahaha..

Surprisingly, there are a lot of girls player. And guess what, a bunch of stewardess from God knows which airlines are in division 2!! And my mighty hubby is in division 4 only.. hmmm... I guess then from now on I would refer to them as mighty stewardess.. And they are hot I tell you hot!!! Holding a marker and shooting at men.. and then they can pose and smile cutely... ehehehhehe...

I'll end this entry now because I beginning to sound like a lesbian.. Anyway, those mighty stewardess they for sure can play a very good game, or else they won't be in Division 2. Almost amateur i guess.. go mighty stewardess go!!!

Tell me the first step to get a baby..

I am so freaking jealous with most of my friends. OK I admit that I am insanely jealous with those who have babies doesn't matter my friends or not!!! I am so into babies.. that I dream of having one almost every month..OK OK every week!!!!

What am I supposed to say? I love baby, I really want at least one.. but we haven't have any.. not because we don't want to.. but that thing just won't stick around.. I hate to answer those bloody question of when? Am I planning? Dammit I just hate that stupid question!!

To a less depressing topic, I FINALLY GOT MY ACCREDITATION SCHEME!! Woo Hoooo!!!! Extra money for extra lavish lifestyle ahahahhahahaha.... what lavish also I dunno..

Birthday gone, doesn't even feel like celebrating it.. gloomy birthday except when hubby throws a surpise small birthday party that attended by 99% of HIS friends... ahhahaha.. ehh wait.. is it my birtday party or his.. ohh.. mine.. the cake says my name... ahahhahaha... Thanks Sab for being there..

What else.. ohh.. I really wanted to upload some pics from last raya, but they're uploading it real slow so I got fed up so I decided will upload it later. (which might mean never in my terms ehehhe). Anyway, I enjoy this year of raya sooo much because I get to go back to my hometown. My hubby really really can't cope with village celebration that is so quiet yet so 'meriah'. That's ok, he will learn in years to come I hope..

What I love most is the busy preparation. We're in the kitchen all day long, which I don't get to feel last year because my in law's family celebrate it differently... I don't get to eat my favorite food last year, so this year... hmmm.. need I say more? ehehehhee..

Well, I'm sure that I'll miss it next year... ohhh great tasty delicious food... I'll see you two years from now!!

Anyway, I running out of word now. And I am getting extremely bitter because my extremely busy husband is so damn busy that I unable to see or even speak to him for 48 hrs now. So I'm just going to sleep now, alone. So people stop asking me why I'm not pregnant yet.