We're not in war people!!!!

What a busy day. What a tiring, busy day. What a tiring yet exciting, busy day. Today is the first day of my darling's paintball tournament. I've been there yes, but I'm in the office currently because..hmmmm...... welll..... you know why.......... I HAVE TO WORK!!!!

But I can see him being happy.. yes he is extremely happy. I was there until his second game, and there's 2 more games to go. First game is the easiest. Because the opposite team decided that they're too chicken to fight my mighty hubby and just didn't turn up for the game.. ehhehehe.. yes my hubby is a mighty hubby... ehehhehehe...

The second game is quite good, and off course, being mighty as he is, they won!!!! Although 2 of his team member got their marker jammed, but they won alright. And he was so ecstatic that he won!! Well, I would be too if I were him.. It is a good game ok... hiding behind bunkers and get to shoot people and hide some more... ahahahhahaha..

Surprisingly, there are a lot of girls player. And guess what, a bunch of stewardess from God knows which airlines are in division 2!! And my mighty hubby is in division 4 only.. hmmm... I guess then from now on I would refer to them as mighty stewardess.. And they are hot I tell you hot!!! Holding a marker and shooting at men.. and then they can pose and smile cutely... ehehehhehe...

I'll end this entry now because I beginning to sound like a lesbian.. Anyway, those mighty stewardess they for sure can play a very good game, or else they won't be in Division 2. Almost amateur i guess.. go mighty stewardess go!!!

Tell me the first step to get a baby..

I am so freaking jealous with most of my friends. OK I admit that I am insanely jealous with those who have babies doesn't matter my friends or not!!! I am so into babies.. that I dream of having one almost every month..OK OK every week!!!!

What am I supposed to say? I love baby, I really want at least one.. but we haven't have any.. not because we don't want to.. but that thing just won't stick around.. I hate to answer those bloody question of when? Am I planning? Dammit I just hate that stupid question!!

To a less depressing topic, I FINALLY GOT MY ACCREDITATION SCHEME!! Woo Hoooo!!!! Extra money for extra lavish lifestyle ahahahhahahaha.... what lavish also I dunno..

Birthday gone, doesn't even feel like celebrating it.. gloomy birthday except when hubby throws a surpise small birthday party that attended by 99% of HIS friends... ahhahaha.. ehh wait.. is it my birtday party or his.. ohh.. mine.. the cake says my name... ahahhahaha... Thanks Sab for being there..

What else.. ohh.. I really wanted to upload some pics from last raya, but they're uploading it real slow so I got fed up so I decided will upload it later. (which might mean never in my terms ehehhe). Anyway, I enjoy this year of raya sooo much because I get to go back to my hometown. My hubby really really can't cope with village celebration that is so quiet yet so 'meriah'. That's ok, he will learn in years to come I hope..

What I love most is the busy preparation. We're in the kitchen all day long, which I don't get to feel last year because my in law's family celebrate it differently... I don't get to eat my favorite food last year, so this year... hmmm.. need I say more? ehehehhee..

Well, I'm sure that I'll miss it next year... ohhh great tasty delicious food... I'll see you two years from now!!

Anyway, I running out of word now. And I am getting extremely bitter because my extremely busy husband is so damn busy that I unable to see or even speak to him for 48 hrs now. So I'm just going to sleep now, alone. So people stop asking me why I'm not pregnant yet.

Good News!! Great News!!!!

Astro now has KBSW channel.. I have no freaking idea what it stands for but it is a Korean Channel!!!!!! Now I can watch Korean dramas all I want!!! I'm soooooo happy!!!
I dunno when did they add this new channel but to Astro, THANK YOU!!

Trying my best to update tis blog after months of keeping quiet. Seems like I am running out of words to say. Celebrating Raya in a very familiar yet different way. I'm so happy....

And yes.. Selamat Hari Raya dan Maaf Zahir Batin.

I'll try to update more after this...

What if...

What if your heart is broken so bad that you thought that your heart will never be the same again? Would you blame the person or the incident that did that to you? Or yourself for allowing it to happened to you? Will you be sad or angry? Will you mend your heart by crying and praying or broke people heart to make you feel better?

You see.. these are choices that we have in our life. Either to make yourself a better person or worse when facing a disaster of your life. Some people choose to guard themselves so they will never be hurt again, some people choose not to change anything because the experience worth all the hurting. Who are we to tell which one is right or wrong?

Maybe, just maybe... GOD destined us for better future. That's why he make this disaster happened. Maybe if this isn't happening, we could be worse. I'm sure there's a silver lining in every cloud. This is my choice of handling my sadness. If I'm ever frustrated over anything, I'll promise myself to remember this. I will no resort to blaming others, or even the situation. I'll not blame myself either. I hope I'll be a better person.

I'm ultimately sure that if God wants me to be a mother, I'll be. Maybe not now, but I will. God will let us be. I'll just need to make sure that I'm a better person so that I'll be a better mother than I will now. I'll take this as a test for me. Thank you God for at least giving me the opportunity of hoping.

PS :- This doesn't mean that I miscarried or anything. Simply because I have to wait for another month for trying.

Correct me if I'm wrong but...

Correct me if I'm wrong but the losing of Nurin Jazlin is the parents fault. I'm being very bold here, but not without my deepest sympathy, but an eight years old child shouldn't be going to night market alone. That is definitely not a place for a child, no matter how safe you think the place is... To thought that the parents would learned something from a missing child case at SOGO a few months back..

Correct me if I'm wrong but a little girl alone is like a magnet to pedophiles. In places of people don't really pay attention of one another except selling and buying and chit chatting, its a heaven to them. No one would notice anything, who would have cared of a little girl crying at the arm of a man, the would have thought that the girl was denied a candy or something.

Correct me if I'm wrong but a child shouldn't go anywhere alone. It us who suppose to bring them. We are the caretakers, so we care for them, and take them to places they want to go. Although the place is very near, and the people are just your neighbors, but you have to know this. Murderers or a criminals or a pedophiles ARE someone's neighbor. You could never know anything like this would happened.

Correct me if I'm wrong but a sick child shouldn't be going anywhere alone. What if she falls into drain and so helpless to ask for help? Can you imagine a sick child in the drain, unconscious, and the clock is ticking before she lost her life... what if anything happens and she needs her medication straight away? Who would have the medicine if not for people who cares for her...

Please learn from mistakes.. I'm so devastated to see this happening in Malaysia again and again.. Use some brain please... There's nothing wrong of being a little bit paranoid, its your child safety for god's sake, you don't gamble with that!! I'm so sorry if I sound crude or in anyway this post might hurt anyone's feeling, but someone has to say something over this.

Please don't rely on government to teach you every single thing. Do you really have to told to hold your child's hand while crossing? WHO in their right mind would let a child cross the road by themselves? These little are important. Might seems petty and troublesome, but these are the things that can make you sleep well at night. Same as not letting your child out of supervision. Its called common sense!! But then again.. maybe common sense is not common at all....

I imagine the worst could happen when we ignore little thing like this. I pray that Nurin will be home safely soon. No child should pay for parents mistake. She shouldn't suffer like this so that parents in Malaysia would learn how to take care of their child. I hope when I have a child, I would pay attention to these little details. I hope that everyone would.

Until next disaster, I'm reporting sadly from my bedroom....

Behold my words!!!

Today I'm gonna be a bit serious. I know that I got 2 post pending, but I don't feel like blogging about it at all. Lets talk about the most popular topic today.. Maybe not anymore since weeks has passed I know...

Bus crashes, 20 killed

Ehhh.. again? I very very sure I've heard about this like few years before.. Happened again??!! Never learn from mistakes. I don't know until how many hundreds died, then they would put more efforts on avoiding this catastrophes. Lets do what Malaysians do best.. who to blame in this case?

• The bus company

(Picture me saying this shouting) What the hell the bus company is thinking? Where is their responsibility? Didn't they run a check against their employee? Don't tell me that they didn't know about their own bus driver!! That is the lamest excuse ever! Ignorance is bliss I can see that now. Because of ignorance, 20 died, and they get to keep their hands off this matter.. Bliss huh??
I understand that we cannot avoid human error, no one is perfect blah blah blah... but human error can be minimized god dammit!!
I say we just sue the damn company for putting their passenger at risk! Sue them so that they won't be able to operate anymore! Sue them so they have to take bus as their public transport, and scared the shit out of them every time on the damn bus!! Sue them because they don't have moral or civic or whatever conscience they should have. Sue them because they're just irresponsible bastard who can only see money!!!! (panting)

• Our government

Why ohh why this fella still be able to drive around? Why you can put a normal people to jail for parking ticket, but not him? How the hell he can renew his license? Why that you giving excuse after excuse? I don't understand!!!! You see, now when you want to apply this new act or that new law, it wont work either. You know why? Because you have to practise what you said!! You can't just said that ppl cannot do this and that, but when they do, you just close one eye!!!

What ever it is.. I know its too late to point fingers. Let gone be bygone. So after weeks that fatal incident happens, I bet now everybody can relax, smile as if nothing happens, and still sleeping while driving (I'm talking about all the bus drivers).Until the next crash, I'm reporting live from my bedroom :)

What la..

I just came back from my parents house, right after watching Cinta Mat Rempit. Its like a family tradition, to watch Cerekarama every Saturday night at 10pm, TV3. But the movie sucks. Although I love the lead actor so much because of his previous drama, but this drama sucks. Its like lame version of A Walk to Remember.. What laa.. want to tiru pun at least make is good can or not? Spoiled the movie jer..

On other taught, I have so many things to update, especially the latest Royal London Circus. Got a few movie clip to show, but then again, still not sure how to upload. The truth is, I don't even find a way yet. Lazy la nowadays..

Other taught again, I will be on leave for almost a week. Heaven...